Soul Memory: Alice’s Episode (2)

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We were thrown out into the grand universe.

I ask Alice, “What in the world is this all about?” I ask Alice.

Alice says to me with an indescribable expression on her face, “The state of mind of the soul when it is reborn somewhere is always like this. She said to me with an indescribable expression on her face.

While you are being reborn, you are in a solitary state, not knowing what will happen at any given moment. I don’t know what to do, I don’t have anything to do, so there is nothing I can do… So I am always anxious before and after my rebirth, and my heart always feels cold, cold, and the air feels thin.

I hugged Alice and said, “You have lived alone for so long…. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I didn’t recognize you sooner and help you…” I said to her, “I’m sorry I didn’t recognize and help you sooner…” I said words of sympathy and compassion to the soul that had been reincarnated with loneliness for a long time.

‘I know I’m getting a little better every time I reincarnate. But there are so few good people in my reincarnation…. I’ve had more bad events, so I still think I’m in this pattern because there’s something wrong with me.”

You reincarnate in the hope that because you are bad, if you change, people will change too. I am sorry. I didn’t realize that I had suffered for so long…”

When you say “expectations,” that may be true. But on the other hand, when others praise me, I feel myself shrinking. I think, “You really don’t know me, do you? I think, “You really don’t know me, do you?

You never know. “Well, I don’t know, if you’re not that close. And Alice’s feelings are somewhat contradictory, aren’t they? She wants compliments, but when she gets compliments, she feels like she doesn’t know anything about me, and when she gets cold feet, she thinks it’s because I’m bad that things aren’t going well, right?

I don’t know. I’m not sure what that means. I’m the type of person who starts slowly, so I can’t move that quickly from the beginning. I’m more the type of person who takes my time and works slowly, but that’s not the case with work, is it?

That’s true. Everything is difficult until you get used to it.

But people want to work with you, don’t they?

I’m sure that’s true. Maybe Alice is the type that doesn’t like to be pressured?

Yes. Yes.

I see. I want to be loved, so I have to work hard. If you think so, you must have been lonely for a long time.

I’m lonely, aren’t I? I’m not going to be able to do it. Even in this space. Because in this universe, you are an alien. But I am not an alien. So I feel different being here. I don’t know… it’s just a feeling, but I don’t feel like I’m here. Not here… including on Earth.”

Alice said in a mumbled voice, and as if she recalled something, her thoughts went to the end of the empty, distant universe.