In my healing work, I have many clients who have mental illnesses.
In this context, I feel that those who have depression and panic are all very patient and feel very lonely and hurt.
I also think that many people who hear mysterious voices in their heads are very fond of their parents (especially their mothers) and have lived their lives to be liked by their parents (mothers) since childhood.
However, for those who hear mysterious voices, as they get older, their own thoughts (ego) become stronger, and as a result, the gap between what their parents say or do and their own thoughts becomes larger and larger, and because they try to make the gap add up, they unconsciously make excuses to themselves (thoughts) to themselves (mind), and I think they start to hear mysterious voices (third parties).
Why do people put up with so much? I think, “I’m not sure,” but in order to be loved by their parents, they must often feel that their parents are right, or their hearts will be hurt, so they endure (push aside) their feelings and obey their parents.
So those who have lived their lives thinking that what their parents say is right are at the same time assuming that their parents will not love them if they give out their own thoughts (ego).
Therefore, even as an adult, they always look at other people’s color and get into the habit of thinking this or that in their minds (thoughts).
And what I think you all have in common is a deep and strong anger.
この怒りは一つでは無く、縦にも横にも何層にもなっている様々な感情の積み重なりの中で幾つもあるのです。
And I believe that the deepest hurt and anger deep down is still “anger at the unrequited love of parents.
